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our distance...
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
@4:17 PM
Don't you realize that I'm only your label of friend? Not as you say, true friend, and not label. I don't know how to tell you about my feelings. Our distance will be further and further s not because someone is trying to seperate us. Is just our problems do increasing, I know it hurts a lot, but..... can you tell me what can I do to make this crap up? Can't give a good answer right? We ain't in a same story right? I don't hope our friendship goes till this kind of stage. I know how will we be if this is continueing. However, I really don't know what happen. Maybe I know, just I don't willing to face the crap truth! I'm still dreaming how wonderful is it. I'm still wondering how will we be when our old days have came. Will we still be crazy like this? Or will end up right now? Or the next second? I don't know! Just the fear of losing you, I can say, I know I'm that stupid kay. I know that you're not that concern about, just you don't admit it. Cause you know it hurts me lots. But don't you know, whatever thing you just keep in your heart and never tell it to me, it will be MORE hurt! Maybe, you don't suit to be a besties. But you're the always friend that can cheer someone up, you have the ability. You're my friend. But nowadays, we act like strangers. I don't even know you for this moment seriously. You know me cause I have nothing to hide. I know I'm just the label, usually friends who cheated someone thats who is his/her friend, cause they still need them for sometimes. Isn't it? Don't tell me that you're not, you're excluding. I know I'm a crap! Cause I believe whatever you said is true! But, what I got? After this, I'm not going to write how's my feelings to you. Cause everything will just stop at the moment you saw this. You might trying to explain cause you still need me. As you say, you lost your TRUST on HER, how about my TRUST? I'm feeling that I slowly going to the corner of your heart. I can disappear from your world anytime. But, you care? My dislikes, you took it as I jealous. Revenging? No! I'm not. You have your own way. I know I'm fugly like hell! I also don't know how to describe. KAY! I admit that I'm afraid of loneliness. However, what can I do? Just stick around you all time? And see you chat with your friends happily then I take it as I JEALOUS? NO! I'm not going to do that okay. I'm just useless to catch you tight in my hand. I gotta let go. I don't know how to control, I just keep on holding, no matter you're breathless nor whatever, I will just hold you tight, till you fed up of me. I know I'm annoying, I know I shouldn't let you came into my world, I promised myself for couples times, not to let you come in again! Yet, I'm still doing that! Humph.... kayy... I don't know when will I stop doing that. But what I can say is, good luck to you! You will be more happier when you're not that close to me again. We're still friend! :) Mkay?
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