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Too confidence
Monday, January 31, 2011 @10:18 PM


Hey guys, happy chinese new year!! :)
I should applause for myself, I put down something I don't mean to have..
I release the big burden in my heart. I thought he could be mine.
But unfortunately, he doesn't deserve it.. :)
His promises are not for me.
Is not permanent, is just temporarily..
Things that he said, he didn't prove, he didn't fulfill my dreams.
I thought he knows me well, but actually he doesn't.
So what can I do? just give up everything that not belongs to me.
He can just say those phrases that mean alot to me without proving.
Everyone guys in my life is just a visitor.
They don't stay, treat me as a toy.
Done, then throw away as far as they could.
I don't believe in miracles, until the day I met him.
But now? He broke my dreams, my imaginations.
Dreams are always dreams, won't fulfill in reality.
I should wake up and face the fact! (:
What they see ain't the truth, the truth is nude, face that!
Stay to be the who?? You mean it? I can say no, you don't! :)
Never mind, it's nothing to me now... I'll never believe that you'll be mine anymore!
:D cause I know that miracles won't appear in my life.
What a misery full life huh?? :) Thanks God for that! (: 
I appreciate every growth I've overcome.
You said you'll always be by my side, listen to my heart.
Ain't that useless? I'm not that somebody I know.
I might be desperate somehow I know..
Don't act like you're someone here, cause you're nobody in my heart now.
As my friend said, birds usually fly high, but after falling down for times,
their confidence lost, they need time to overcome that.
Get back their braveness, and they can fly even higher than previous time they did.
I admit, I can't be the perfect one, but I'm trying to, ain't I?
How will you know when you're not actually watching me?
I'm too narcissistic, too confidence that you'll have the same feelings.
Sorry, sorry for every idiot things I done. 
I stopped everything and you too! (:
Stop trying to know how I think, who're you in my heart.
That's not important anymore! (; we've matured.
We know where should we be. :) Stay as how you are now!
Stop coming forward to me, it's enough! ;)
Go and find other one that can play with you in this LOVE GAME as I can't.
Good luck.. :)
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